Ma,
Kamusta ka na diyan? Ok ka lang ba?? Well, ako graduating na sa wednesday, March 28, 2007… Madami na naman ang magbabago… Four years ago, nung nawala ka, ang daming nagbago.. like at a very early age of 16, i had to learn things in a hard way… that sometimes, things are beyond your control.. i went to college feeling empty.. good thing i met this great people whom i now consider my treasures.. i think you already know them… Wally (my bestfriend), Rachel, Maricar, Vanessa, and Jonabelle… oh i almost forgot, the latest addition, si Kristine.. forever thankful ako sa mga taong ito for they helped me during those times when i felt na i had no one… Specially wally, up to now, i still can’t believe that of all people, he chose me to tell his secrets firsts before the barkada would know… Si rachel naman was the only person i know that values her family so much that just by teasing her you can make her cry.. and of course, Icay, nessa, jona and tintin, the friendship built between us was something that you wouldn’t find everyday.
gagraduate na ako ma, after this, world of the unemployed naman ang haharapin ko.. when i finish highschool, hindi lang nakakatakot na college life ang hinarap ko… hinarap ko din yung buhay na hindi ka na namin kasama… yung buhay na aasa ako sa ibang tao para maipagpatuloy ko yung pag aaral ko kasi hindi ako kayang pag aralin ni tatay.. not that i am complaining dahil tatay wasn’t able to give us the life that both of you wanted for us to have… i’ll be forever grateful kasi siya ang tatay ko.. kahit there are times na hindi ko siya maintindihan, namin nila ate why is he like that. For without tatay, hindi ako mabubuhay… hindi ako mag eexist…Mahal na mahal ko si tatay, no one could attest that…
ma, i wanted to say thanks din kila tito tam, tito bert, tita arlene, tita irene, tita cecil at tita bebing for they helped me financially in my college years… lalo na si tito bert, kahit na dumami ang kamaganak niya since he now works in dubai, and he’s earning quite well, eh hindi niya kinalimutan na may pamilya na naiwan yung kapatid niya.. si tito tam, even thouh he’s in dubai na, his presence are still felt dahil sa mga words of wisdom na iniwan niya sa akin… si tita irene na sobrang sinuportahan ako sa lahat ng bagay na ginawa ko walang tanong tanong basta alam niya na kailangan ko, magbibigay siya agad… kay tita arlene who served as my second mother kapag may tanong ako sa sarili ko… si tita cecil and tita bebing who never stopped giving me endless guidelines in life… Si tito ronie, tito boy, tito rod, and their family for being there for me and my sisters… sa siblings din ni tatay specially tito inday, tito jesse and tita susan, sa pagbibigay ng tulong sa allowance ko…
mama you once said na kaya mong mawala ang lahat wag lang kaming tatlo.. does it mean you prefer na ikaw ang mauna sa amin dahil hindi mo kaya na kami ang mauna?? again, gagraduate na ako ma, four years ago, in your wake, hindi ko pa masyadong nararamdaman ang pagkawala mo… i just assumed na you’re out of town, doing some work.. pero ngayon, everytime may makikita ako that would remind me of you, ngayon ko lang narealize, no words can expressed how much i am missing you, and the sad thing about it is that i can’t do anything para mabawasan o magsubside yung nararamdaman ko.. yes, gagraduate ako dahil sa pinagsama samang tulong ng pamilya mo generally, and tatay… oo masarap sa pakiramdam nila na sa wakas, ang bunso ni Inday mimie ay tapos na.. achievement oo… they would be proud of me… and i know that.. although tatay is still alive and kicking and will do everything for me and my ate’s… there is no way na mararamdaman ko pa how proud you will be because finally, after 16 years of studying.. from nursery to college, your youngest has now a profession of her own… there is no way i would be able to feel your hug whenever you want to cuddle me… there is no way i would be able to make you smile because of the silly stuffs i do… and there is no way i can make myself stop from feeling hurting of losing you…
Missing You So Much,
Angie
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